Yeah Whatever...

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2010-03-21T20:39:00.003Z

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I think u better hold your tongue

2009-08-07T12:39:00.002+01:00

Doing some drawing.
Drinking pineapple and grapefruit greentea.
Listening to bob dylan radio on last fm.
It's all good.
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DAY 5

2009-07-31T10:20:00.003+01:00

Press PLAY for a little update.

SUH-WEEEEEET

2009-07-24T11:54:00.006+01:00

saw prof green at the macbeth down in hoxton on wednesday. it's been ages since i went to any uk hiphop gigs but to be honest i was getting pretty bored of all the preachy politics wank a lot of them always seem to keep banging on about. i really enjoyed this though and although quite a few of the tracks seemed to be backed up by classic samples...erm yeah that one by dead prez...it was an alround enjoyable evening. and now i can't be arsed to crap on talking as if i know a bean about uk hiphop. it was good.

so the rest of the week i've been supposed to be 'working' from home but it's been a task and half. making tea is always a welcome distraction and this morning i baked raisin bran muffins. i like to kid myself that because they have bran in them they're healthy, don't even bother, i saw how much oil and sugar went into them, still they were damn delicious if i do say so myself.

lately i keep thinking about ending this blog, i'm finding myself in the situation where i'm pretty happy with the way things are going in my life now and therefore don't feel the need to escape to the world of blogs as often and which therefore means i never seem to end up replying to the lovely comments i get which i personally think is damn right rude. i dunno, it all seems a bit pointless really and i still suffer from that age old problem of wondering why anyone would be bothered to read this crap and also do i actually want anyone reading this crap...*embarassed confusion*. oh i hate these pity seeking posts so actually i'm going to stop right now!

haha yes i'm rambling today...could it be because i'm avoiding work? errr, too right. anyway, i'm happy it's friday, i'm happy a load of my mates have just moved to clapham, i'm happy i have enough money to pay my bills, and yeah...it's all good. for the first time in a long while i woke up this morning feeling full of energy, from dreaming about surfing. i always wanted to be a surfer...

THEY MAKE GRRRREAT PETS

2009-07-17T11:31:00.004+01:00

say hi to florence and etruria. i went to a friends private viewing in shoreditch yesterday evening and if i had had a spare two grand lying around i blatantly would have spent it on these little puppies. i've decided they would be the perfect solution to my desire to own a little dog. i won't need to walk it, feed it or pick up it's poop, i can just carry it around in my handbag while it looks all cute and stuff.

finders keepers

2009-07-08T09:34:00.003+01:00

my mum's holidaying in crete pretending to be shirley valentine and my sis is at some fashion tradeshow in barcelona so i kindly offered to dog sit while they're away which means i am staying all on my lonesome in my mums flat which just happens to be a hop skip and a jump away from selfridges (how i wish i wasn't so fucking poor at the moment). anyway it's not all bad, because while they're away and i'm bored to tears i had the inevitable little snoop in both their wardrobes one evening and i found these little babies which appear to be from primark no less (it's been ages since i went near a shop, let alone primark, so i have no idea whats out there at the moment). luckily my lovely sister is willing to lend them to me for a little while. it's great having a sister the same size when you can't afford to buy clothes, now i just have to see whether my dear mother will mind lending me her birkin for a little while...

today i have a meeting about some freelance work for a graphic designer friend of mine. i'm quite excited. gotta keep that ball rolling...

learn from my mistakes children

2009-07-06T20:39:00.003+01:00

see what happens when you try and iron your favourite supersoft seethru black aa vest, when it specifically says on the label "do not iron". i don't know what i was thinking...still, isn't holey stuff fashionable at the moment? i don't even know anymore...

I don't think so sunny jim

2009-07-03T13:41:00.005+01:00

i know, it's been a fu@king long time, but today's the last day of my internship and the first time i've had a chance to even think about posting. i have to say it's been a wicked two months and i'm starting to feel a lot more like myself again and with the added bonus of feeling like i might actually be able to accomplish something worthwhile. for now let's just say i'm going to be wrapping things up with my old job situation this month.

yesterday i spent a blissful afternoon in hyde park drinking pear cider, watching crystal castles, the foals and um...blur. i can't say i was always a massive fan even though i've always liked them but i'm so glad we got tickets because to be fair they smashed it and i had another of the many 'best times' i've had in the last 2 months. we even crossed paths with alice glass from crystal castles and convinced her to take a photo with us after realising that we didn't have a pen she could sign my friends breasts with. actually i think she might've been a little scared of us? it was ridiculously hot aswell but i'm loving not feeling the need to throw on any extra layers the second the sun goes down...also the sunset...it was beautiful, and as blur played beetlebum i'd forgotten how that song reminded me so much of my friend tom, who was murdered several years ago when he was traveling in china, and i was brought to tears because he was one of the loveliest people you could ever hope to meet and the whole moment caught me by surprise but in a nice way even though it's actually a pretty sad thing - tom r.i.p.

anyway, i still have more things to tell so posting should start to get a little more regular from now on i hope and i will also finally get a chance to catch up on what everyone else has been up to.

x x thanks for coming back xx

thank fuck it's friday! nice hairrrrr.......

2009-05-01T12:51:00.004+01:00

i'm in a super good mood today, it's friday, the sun is shining and it's my last day in the office! i forgot to say thanks for all the really supportive comments from everyone about the internship, it actually means a lot and as you can probably tell, i'm still reeeeeally excited.

tomorrow morning we're going to look at a new flat. i'm really hoping it's going to be a trillion times nicer than the one we veiwed last week in hoxton which was no bigger than a shoe box and surrounded by ickyness...shame really because we have friends up that way and there are a lot of great places to go out. anyway we'll see, we really need a bigger place which is hard to find in london when you're on a budget.

i love the way this model's hair has been braided across her forehead (slightly neverending story). unfortunately i don't think i'm skilled enough in the hair department to do this myself and if i did i'd probably end up looking ridiculous anyway. sometimes you just gotta know when to hold back.

catch up catch up...jerk off losers & the problem with twitter

2009-04-28T16:05:00.007+01:00

erm...so where the fuck have i been recently? watching countless episodes of "the hills" via surfthechannel and not much else really. and just to get this off my chest...spencer 'pratt', how fucking apt, i've never known a bigger prize twat. ha! so yeah, i have to be honest and say i really haven't felt like blogging lately and haven't really been reading many blogs either. i guess i've just been in a blogging rut and suprisingly for me, busy with other things.

i did decide however, to see what little gems twitter might have to offer. kinda like blogging on the go in little bursts actually sounds ideal. unfortunately after setting up my account i was disappointed to learn that you can only recieve updates to your mobile if you're with vodafone?? what's the fucking point in that? i do have a blackberry for work and was trying to download the twitterberry app but looks like work have blocked third party apps. yeah it actually sounds like i know what i'm talking about using all this technical jargon but i can promise you i really don't have a clue. so anyway, for now twitter is a no go.

i have some other little ideas that i have yet to put into action, like the tumblr account where i'll be posting pictures of my artwork but apart from that...only 2 more days to go till i don't have to be stuck in this crappy little office...i can not wait!

regarding todays pictures...mccauley culkin, such a beautiful freak and as for the girls get up...this is the sort of thing i'd like to be floating around in all summer, i'd prob change the manky flip flops for my all saints fringed ankle boots though...

and my final words for today...thank you so much to claire for the award (although i'm sure i don't deserve it recently for being so slack) it's super cute just like her and when i get the time next week to catch up on all my fav blogs i'll be passing it on...

breath again

2009-04-14T12:48:00.004+01:00

apologies for my recent cryptic-ness but i didn't want to jinx anything. i'm literally dancing on tables right now, (well in my head anyway...it probably wouldn't be too appropriate in my crap office) because i've been offered a design internship at a gallery/venue type place for a couple of months. i don't know if i'm too old to be doing this sort of thing and i'm basically going to be skint as for two months which is going to suck big time but i'm well excited at the prospect of being able to do something a little more creative than fill in data infront of a computer all day on a hell hole industrial estate, and maybe if i'm a little bit lucky and can make the most out of the situation then something even better will come if it. ok i don't wanna get my hopes up or as i said before...jinx anything, for now i'm just gonna enjoy the moment and get on with it.

image > thecobrasnake

GOOD = BAD = GOOD

2009-04-08T17:58:00.002+01:00

i'm quite excited about something today, but either way whatever happens there will be good stuff tainted with bad stuff...but that's just life i suppose.

image > hedislimane

CHANGES R BOUND

2009-04-03T12:08:00.006+01:00

but i'm still diggin chicks with short short hair. arvida is hot.

images>milk/arvida

a whole 15 minutes??

2009-04-02T14:17:00.006+01:00

what seems like ages ago now, i sent in a piece of work to be part of something called mail me art. it was so long ago i'd pretty much forgotten about it, until today when i received an email in my mailbox to tell me that my work would be part of the exhibition starting tomorrow and that it would be great if i could make it along to the opening night... oh go on then...

so if anyone fancies coming down to take a look i reckon there will be whole load of wicked art to look at, and buy if you're feeling a bit flush.

the venue>>>

Red Gate Gallery 209a
Coldharbour Lane,
London. SW9 8RU. UK

the time>>>

Friday 3rd April 6pm - 11pm

if anything at least there should be some free beer.

i sang stupid made up songs on the way to work

2009-04-01T14:22:00.003+01:00

i don't know what it is, today has been one of those days where i just feel like hiding from the world and looking after myself. i hate having responsabilities and having to do things i don't want to. i know some people think we always have a choice but sometimes none of the options seem to be any better that what you've already got.

dinner last night was lovely though...and i think she liked her present. i also realised today that it's easter next weekend which means friday and monday off work. can't wait...i hope we get some sunshine.

image>buffaloparade

more cake

2009-03-31T13:05:00.009+01:00

today is my little sister's birthday, so there was a little pre-celebration do somewhere in camden on saturday and a whole lot more cake...yes it's pretty much all i hate all weekend and probably why i feel so hideous right now. still i'm looking forward to dinner tonight and really hoping she likes her present.

I ATE MY FOOD PORN (then felt like a fatty and gave the rest to my sister)

2009-03-29T12:50:00.001+01:00

basically all week i was dreaming about making these cupcakes. for some reason i have become totally obsessed. these babies are vanilla cake with rose flavoured buttercream, and if i may say so myself...were the yummiest i've ever tasted. i still can't believe how much butter and suger went into making them...i swear i could feel my thighs throbbing/expanding after just one bite!

i blame pamela love

2009-03-27T15:07:00.001Z

for my recent facination with bird skulls??

skinny girls posting food porn piss me off

2009-03-27T14:25:00.001Z

just sayin...

the full moon makes me mental

2009-03-27T13:04:00.004Z

last night i went to covent garden for the lightning seeds album launch. er correction...i went to drink the free booze and munch on the free canapes, i seriously couldn't give a crap about their new album, or any of their albums for that matter. while standing around waiting for something to happen i did a little bit of people watching, and mental slagging off. i couldn't help imagining that most of the people there were similar to the main character in john niven's book kill your friends (a chang-ed up arsehole of an a & r guy), especially the jean's and suit jacket wearing guy standing in front of me who knowingly nodded his head to the beat throughout the 5 song set in a desperate attempt to show he was 'down with the kids' but who on closer inspection was botoxed up to the max. he was freaking me out so much i couldn't stop staring at him and consequently made my husband promise he would never go down the botox path. it looks so wrong, i really hope i can grow old gracefully but there's a good chance i may cave in at some point...

also, i have never seen so many flat caps in one place. can anyone explain this fashion to me? what does it mean? i just don't understand.

anyway, all in all we achieved our goal of free mid-week drunkenness with the added bonus of an argument on the way home for good measure, which resulted in me telling my husband he would have to sleep on the sofa and me stealing all the blankets/pillows while he was in the bathroom and locking them plus myself in the bedroom. unfortunately to my disgust and frustration he had the quick thinking to get the sleeping bag from the car which he rubbed in my face by laughing satisfactorily to himself just loud enough for me to hear. bastard.

actually it was all forgotten by this morning and we had a good laugh about it...well he had a good laugh at my expense, he finds my female strops hilarious.

gutted last night was the last episode of skins.

you want to be like PARIS HILTON?

2009-03-25T14:02:00.002Z

yeah...so this was my husbands response when i announced the other day that i wanted a little dog for some companionship, as if everyone in the world who owns a tiny dog is desperate to be like paris. i just think it would be easier to look after in our small london flat and i think these boston terriers are suuuuper cute. alas it won't be happening anyway, it would be far too cruel to leave such a little thing on it's own all day while we are both at work.

when the WOLVES come out

2009-03-18T14:05:00.004Z

i have developed a recent obsession with wolves, there's something powerful yet sad about the look in their eyes but whatever it is is beyond beautiful. i'm now looking for the perfect ring.

did you know when they mate they get locked together for half an hour at least! this cheeky wolf i was watching on a wildlife program the other day had sneaked into another pack and tried to secretly shag one of the females. when he got caught red pawed by the head of the pack he couldn't get away poor thing, it was pretty funny to watch.

images>google

at the time it must've seemed like a good idea

2009-03-16T14:14:00.004Z

on saturday my good friends will and ben celebrated their birthday which meant drinking, drinking and more drinking. i decided to shun the beer and stick to cocktails in a bid make my evening seem a little classier than it actually was, needless to say i spent the entire day in bed yesterday watching movies and stuffing myself with all the carbs i'd been denying myself throughout the week, but i was glad to see that there was still a little change left in my wallet after the nights festivities. upon checking my bank account first thing this morning at work i struggled to figure out why there wasn't as much skrilla in there as i thought there should've been. i found the receipt in my bag later today that says the large round of cocktails was on me...apparently. i can't believe I didn't even remember and that i can't afford the silver sequin blazer on topshop's website this morning. life is so unfair when you're a shallow, materialistic, amaretto sour guzzler.

todays one's a goodie

2009-03-13T10:25:00.005Z

SAGITTARIUS - November 23rd - December 21st

Achieving a cherished hope isn't as fanciful as someone is telling you it is. You're letting them influence your thinking. Your creative muscles will grow weak and waste away if you don't flex them soon. Believe in your power to realise your dreams and look for ways to make things happen. Your fortunes could change for the better and all because of your determination not to allow the negativity that's currently around you, thwart you.

i love horoscopes that make you feel just that little bit better about your wretched self and make you believe a little more that you're feelings are justified. even though in the end they usually turn out to be bull...

lately i have to keep telling myself...

2009-03-12T13:26:00.002Z

image> rvca.com (i think?)

grade zero

2009-03-11T13:32:00.000Z

this girl almost makes me want to shave all my hair off again. when it comes to hair i'm either all (very long) or nothing (shaved) as long as i don't have to do too much with it. however as much as i loved it at the time, that growing out stage was hell, and after all the crap i've put my hair through over the years, i kinda like having it natural looking.

image>thecobrasnake

BATHTIME

2009-03-07T07:20:00.004Z

i hate feet but i <3 baths

hope everyone is having a good weekend. i'm up way too early on a saturday after a late running boozy pub dinner last night with lovely people lucy and joseph. lucy and i decided we should arrange a breakfast date which for some reason i'm quite excited about. people always meet up in the evening but never in the morning it seems. breakfast is my favourite meal of the day.

nooutfitsjustabunchacrapibought

2009-03-03T17:58:00.005Z

so as it was payday on friday i fucked off work and went shoppingggg. i tried on a whole bunch of stuff and was in the mood for impulse buys which ended up in the form of this...

denim corset >>> topshop

bodycon zip dress >>> topshop

sleeveless denim jacket >>> h&m

i was looking mighty shit when i took these pictures hence the cat mask to hide my sans makeup and dark circled eyes (i've been sleeping really badly lately). yep i decided i needed cat masks in my life so i also bought a black one aswell from ebay. also below are 'those' shoes from aldo which are so comfortable i haven't been able to wait til the weather gets warmer to wear them, so i've been wearing them with black tights for now. and some magazines, because i'm loving more than anything at the moment just curling up in bed where it's nice and quiet and reading all about new things and peoples lives and looking at beautiful pictures.

the rest of the weekend was spent>>>

drinking & dancing with the girls in camden
sleepover @ my sisters, lying in bed all morning talking about clothes
curing hangovers in selfridges by eyeing up the erin wasson x rvca & alex wang collections
tasting my first bloody mary on the southbank with the boys (surprisingly yum)
evening wandering round convent garden & trying to get served at dirty martini
take away sushi for dinner
sunday lunch with friends playing pub quiz where i never know the answers

my next task will be to complete the tag from chloe, sorry it's taken me sooooo longgggggg x

i like to entertain myself

2009-03-03T11:33:00.005Z

@ work & bored as fu@k

YEAH>>>

2009-03-03T08:49:00.003Z

still being a crap blogger. i'm hoping to find some time this evening to do a proper post as i bought some pretty nice stuff at the weekend. i'll also just say that the weather was well nice in here in london which cheered me up no end. spring is definitely in the air.

image>>ilovefake

LAZY/UNINSPIRED/BUSY/HIDING/SEEKING

2009-02-23T11:07:00.005Z

just some ways to describe how i've been feeling recently and a little explaination towards the lack of posts this month. i'm not exactly depressed, i just can't be arsed. sometime's you just feel like you're regurgitating what everyone else out there is already saying and to be quite honest it's making me feel dull...and tired of myself.

current obsessions>>>>>>>

vodka martinis (this one just doesn't ever seem to go away)
bright red lipstick, more orange than blue (inspired by georgia may jagger)
my new black lace up wedges from aldo (kinda gutted to see them on fashion toast, yet another thing that makes me feel highly unoriginal)
watching movies - if you haven't already seen slumdog millionaire just do, don't let the fact that it's won a gazillion awards put you off. (yeah, being a contrary mary that's the kind of thing that will make me purposely avoid watching any film)
swedish blogs with lots of pretty pictures for me to look at
oversized light blue denim levis jackets i wish i hadn't thrown mine out
not smoking i won't give in

do you think this snail is happy? do you think he feels abused because someone...'john' thought it would be cool to vandalise his house?? so fucking rude.

breaking up the monotony

2009-02-05T13:37:00.003Z

i'm supposed to be going to a friends exhibition opening tonight in bethnal green courtesy of concrete hermit. his name is andrew james jones and i really only know him through my husband who used to hang out with him back in bristol. the first time i went to one of his little shows i was greeted by an emotion of utter disgust which was then followed by unexpected pleasure? i'm not sure that's the right word exactly. every time i look at his work, it conjures up such mixed emotions i find it hard to explain. i've heard people say that they are absolutely appalled by it but even more so when they find themselves being amused by it.

stuck in life while i try to make other plans

2009-02-05T09:56:00.005Z

it's so hard to get out of bed in the morning at the moment.
after tossing and turning all night because of getting pins and needles in my arms, the alarm clock that goes off at 6.30am is more than unwelcome.
i lie there until just after 7.00.
drifting in and out of consciousness while wondering why i was dreaming about lying on a railroad track with a broken back and feeling the ground digging into my open flesh.
it's time to make a move. roll back the covers. get up get up.
without fail, my peaceful other half rolls onto my side of the bed, as he does every morning.
i step over clothes and shoes while i unwillingly stumble to the door.
on goes the yellow kitchen light. another day to get through. another pot of coffee that i make for two.
the same.
the same.
the same.
the same clothes. the same make up. the same disapproving look in the mirror before i leave.
roll on 5 o clock. roll on friday 5 o clock.

i seriously need to sort this out. this just can't go on forever. and ever. and ever. and ever.

being 'goofy' i couldn't even manage to tic tac

2009-02-04T10:21:00.004Z

i always wished i could skate but was just a bit crap at it, or probably just lacked the dedication. i was better on bin liners. still i'm loving these decks, especially the 2nd one.

more photos of collete @ the selby

don't eat the yellow snow

2009-02-02T10:56:00.008Z

oh what a shame, i can't go to work today. i would've, but i was told not to bother...yeah baby. i give you some photos i took this morning on my way to get milk for much needed cups of tea. i actually can't believe how thick the snow is...amost up to my knees! quite impressive for central london and quite lovely. it's strange how everyone also seemed to be in a good mood and talking to each other.

always watching me

2009-02-02T09:00:00.002Z

andre spotted in covent garden, with a toaster for good measure.

no junkies allowed

2009-02-01T18:03:00.002Z

make up cappucino and pain au chocolat in cafe nero at the 7 dials, covent garden. i was disappointed to discover we wouldn't be shooting up with heroin in their toilets that morning (just kidding). still you gotta love them uv lights.

mug shots + vodka shots x 3

2009-01-31T16:51:00.001Z

1. attempting to find my inner camwhore - must need more alcohol.
2. my husband's freaky new tash. yeah he knows he looks like a cunt but insists on keeping it just because it amuses him how it annoys me.
3. my gorgeous sis, looking gorgeous as always.

a combination of staying sober for a month, pay day and having a shitty week meant it was time to go out and get drunk. sometimes it just has to be done. needless to say although most of the night was pretty damn fun it all ended in tears with me sleeping on the sofa. alcohol is bad kiddies.

say whaaaat?! so outta my league...

2009-01-29T14:20:00.006Z

yesterday i receive an email from net-a-porter telling me that for a mere 1394.69 english pounds this balmain chain detail tank can be mine.

seriously, why the fuck do i even bother..?

lost forever in the stupid sun

2009-01-28T09:50:00.000Z

i currently have the attention span of a gnat. i can't stop thinking about warmer weather, road trips round europe (we're thinking of going to pukklepop in belgium, anyone been? any good?), drinking beer and dancing in the middle of scummy festival fields.
you can't see it brilliantly in these pictures, but i've recently taken to wearing this turquoise stone necklace i bought in new york about 10 years ago now. it's my favourite colour stone for jewellery and reminds me of sunny days and my beautiful greek grandmother who used to always wear a turquoise ring which she said protected her from the evil eye or something. she gave me the ring when she passed away and i stupidly lost it in a polo field on sports day. my friends helped me search that field high and low even though we all knew it was unlikely to turn up. it still makes me so angry to this day that i hadn't been more careful.
luckily i still have the silver cuff that she wore religiously all the time i knew her. i now do the same, on my right wrist.

growing pains

2009-01-27T09:00:00.001Z

i finally got around to seeing sommer's town this weekend. i loved it. a heartwarming slice of london life. however after seeing the trailer for persepolis for the first time, even though i've been meaning to watch it since it came out aaaages ago, this is now my number one movie to watch. january is the perfect month for catching up on films.

say hello to my little friend

2009-01-26T17:15:00.008Z

so on saturday i went for my first ever full body massage at this place called cucumba in soho. the boy got me vouchers for xmas and i decided that would be the best way to spend them. it was amazingly relaxing, however being chucked back out onto oxford st straight after sent my stress levels soaring once more. there was only one solution...to take sanctuary in my beloved all saints hidden away behind topshop on oxford circus. i wasn't planning on making any purchases, the only item i'd been lusting after for quite some time appeared to be sold out on their website and besides, even after being reduced from 130 to 91 pounds was still too expensive for me, but, somethings are just meant to be and with my beady little eye i spotted the sought after item sitting all on it's lonesome on a shelf. i picked it up, stroked the soft leather for a bit and played around with the numerous zips until i opened the bag, finding a piece of paper inside saying it was now reduced to 65. i'm sorry but for me that was a complete bargain, so without a second thought i was at that till whipping out my credit card.

my husband just laughed at me when i got home. his words, "you go on and on about being skint but you somehow manage to pay for a new bag?" he didn't understand that this wasn't an impulse buy, it was the bag of my dreams which i will use until it dies, it was the only one left and a much more reasonable price. it had to be done. end of.

this is the only thing i've bought myself since xmas, apart from the checked shirt of course, but i am sticking to my new shopping mantra which is not to buy anything without thinking about it for a good long time first. if it's meant to be it will be, if not, it's not the end of the world. there will be plenty more materialistic items for me to fall in love with.

i want

2009-01-20T13:46:00.005Z

i know these pics of erin have been flying around all over the place recently but all i'm saying is that the right denim jacket from a charity shop and a bit of good old bleach is gonna save me $195. i will definitely be diy-ing my own version of this vest by the time it's actually warm enough to wear in this country, whether i'm brave enough to tackle recreating the amazing shredded tshirt by raquel allegra?...only time will tell...

pic from rvca.com

some things are that mundane

2009-01-16T21:25:00.002Z

yeah i know...it's just a checked shirt, not the most original item of clothing one could own but there are just some things that are practical and comfortable enough to give into sometimes. being the super picky person that i am it's not as if i just decided "i need a checked shirt, that'll do" quite the contrary. everyone knows they haven't exactly been scarce on the highstreet but none of them until now ever seemed like they would be able to match up to the salmon pink and green one of my dad's that i used to wear constantly as a teenager when i was going through my 'grunge' phase. this one however appealed to me today for some reason, good length, not overly baggy and i like the coral and navy colours, so i bought it...even though i shouldn't have.

oh and yes, i have just managed to write a load of bollocks about a fucking checked shirt. guess that's blogging for ya.

if i wasn't skint as a brick

2009-01-15T18:37:00.002Z

1.2.

1. all saints teja bag
2. vivienne westwood armour ring

VOLVER

2009-01-15T18:24:00.002Z

i finally watched this last night. i liked it. it made me miss spain.

it's all about me

2009-01-14T13:13:00.006Z

and it’s pretty dull so i don’t blame anyone who can’t be arsed to read this. i know i wouldn’t bother if it was the other way round.

i know my blogging has been a little sporadic recently and pretty impersonal but that is because i have been taking some much needed me time. you might remember me going on about how i was shit scared of getting the new year blues but how i had a plan of action to combat this, and so far i have to say, things aren’t feeling too bad.

i know i said i wouldn’t be giving up drinking and smoking as this might send me over the edge but actually this is doing me a world of good.

i’ve quit smoking weed and tobacco and the green stuff i don’t miss one little bit, it’s completely pointless and i hate how i seem to keep falling back into the habit mainly because my husband has a weak spot for it and with all due respect, unlike a lot of people who like to get caned, it does not effect his motivation to work hard and be a productive human being, but i’m glad we are both off it and i’m enjoying having a bit more sharpness to my brain. the tobacco i miss a little, but lets face it, it’s expensive, it stinks and it won’t help to keep those wrinkles at bay, especially seeing as i’ll be hitting the big three oh at the end of this year.

drinking has been ‘cut back’ because i am fed up of the hangovers every weekend which result in me not accomplishing very much. i’m enjoying being a homebody at the moment, i feel refreshed and i’m also saving money. bonus. this doesn’t mean i won’t have a glass of wine or a cheeky vodka martini (god i love them) if i really feel like it, which generally speaking…I don’t. instead i’ve been spending the weekends going to exhibitions, cooking delicious meals and catching up on movies i’ve been meaning to watch.

as promised i have been hitting the gym 4 – 5 times a week for 45mins and although some days i really don’t feel like going i’m usually damn glad i did afterwards and it’s nice that i’m not having that post Christmas ‘fuck i feel fat and I hate myself’ depression, which yes, i know, is silly when you’re not actually FAT fat, but i’m sure everyone gets those days regardless.

so all in all i am feeling pretty happy and healthy which means i’m now concentrating on redoing my cv and getting a new job with creative, like minded individuals. if you read this blog regular like, i’m sure you’ve seen me go on about how i hate my job, blah blah blah, get out the violins, but the reason is because actually, despite having studied animation at uni and always wanting to become an artist, doing work experience on kids shows for the the bbc and nickelodeon, having designed and sold tshirts at camden market and winning a small tshirt competion (i was very proud of this at the time), i have ended up spending the past two years working in an office for my dad’s international postal distribution service. big fat yawn i hear you say? i gotta admit it was the money that seduced me, but also i wanted to spend some time with my dad who i’ve always struggled to get along with, especially when he left my mum this time six years ago out of the blue for another woman (if it will fuck up a 23 year old I hate to think what it does to little kiddies). i was also kind of flattered that he asked me coz i always felt like a bit of a disappointment, but now i think i've gotten all i'm gonna get out of doing it and it's just time to take what i've learned and move on.

tshirt comp design

anyway, after last years wedding whirlwind i am trying my hardest to focus on finding what i want to do with the rest of my life because to be fair i feel quite blessed with everything else. i’m taking my time and thinking, picking and choosing carefully. let’s see, by the time i’m 30 i’d like things to be heading in the right direction and some big changes are definitely due.

tagged: the pope does marilyn

2009-01-13T17:32:00.004Z

i got tagged by chloe - very cute pic btw

the rules
1. go to the 4th folder on your computer where you store your images

2. pick the 4th picture in the folder

3. explain the picture

4. tag 4 people to do the same

i can't believe i haven't posted any of these photos yet coz there are actually some pretty good ones if you're into graffiti at all. i took this at the cans festival last year. i think i like it so much because old popey looks so gleeful.

i now tag thrills and frills, keep it sleazy, perplexed pixie and lucy in the sky

tale of how

2009-01-08T21:52:00.006Z

i've just spent the evening watching the 2nd pictoplasma dvd on our sick new 40" tv that arrived yesterday evening. this animation by the blackheart gang was pretty special i thought.

lost in translation

2009-01-07T17:21:00.002Z

photo by cocoip

photo by wasabinoise

i'm still feeling pretty restless at the moment and whenever this happens i always begin to think about travelling. as long as i can remember i have wanted to visit tokyo and actually just japan in general. lucky for me my gorgeous husband is feeling the same way so maybe i'll get to make a little trip this year.

chain mail

2009-01-07T17:11:00.003Z

i love receiving packages through the post. by the time they arrive you forget about the fact you paid for them and they feel more like a little gift out of the blue. this arrived yesterday. the necklace from all saints but better coz it was on sale. sweet.

"i like boring things."

2009-01-04T11:45:00.006Z

yesterday we decided to go down to the southbank and check out the andy warhol exhibition at the hayward. my favourite exhibits were some prints of mick jagger and a random interview with american author fran lebowitz (who frankly i never heard of before). let's say i found her views refreshing.

quit dreamin mary jane

2009-01-04T11:23:00.005Z

i'm still contemplating the new year and wondering what 2009 will bring. i constantly feel like i'm not doing what i'm meant to be doing and will die miserable, retched, bitter and twisted (a little like my beautiful grandmother god bless her). i know i am the only one who has control over my destiny and that waiting around for some magical, out of the blue experience to hit me between the eyes will more than likely NOT happen.

i am totally lost in the rat race at the moment and thinking thinking thinking how the hell to get out of it.

hello 2009

2009-01-01T19:45:00.003Z

happy new year.
make it count.

LOVE/HATE

2008-12-30T16:44:00.003Z

i love my new black leather converse my husband bought me for christmas. they pretty much go with everything, are comfortable for trecking around london and a little more resistant towards the wet weather here than the canvas ones i've had in the past.

i hate winter. it's official, i'm over it. ok i lie a little coz actually i love the sunny but cold days we've been having recently, the reason why i'm hating on this season at the moment is mainly because we have no frickin' heating or hot water in our house right now due to our boiler being royally fucked. thank god i joined the gym down the road from me as i don't know how i'd be coping without their hot showers.

current listening : ladyhawke

2008-12-21T19:20:00.006Z

it's been ages since i bought anything on cd but last week i decided to pick up a copy of ladyhawke's recent album as i remembered hearing a couple of tracks aaaages ago and thinking they weren't half bad. honestly i wasn't too sure at first but most of the best albums require a few listenings before you fall in love and it wasn't long before i found myself singing along to every song. it's all i've been listening to this week but be warned...it's pretty 80's sounding so if that not be your cup of tea then perhaps give this one a miss...otherwise, play on.

i will never grow up

2008-12-21T19:12:00.002Z

yeah, i'm quite excited about the return of skins in the new year and i'm pleased that effy will still be in it. i honestly don't remember anyone being as cool as her when i was that age...except for myself of course ;) (i wish)

oh those ker-razy kids

2008-12-18T11:51:00.004Z

ok i'm going to be a little mean here but all i could think of when i saw these pictures on the selby was how mingin' peaches hands and feet are. i simply cannot abide bitten chewed up fingernails and she also has big callouses on her toes. i actually hate all feet though so she shouldn't feel too bad, and i'm probably only picking at her because i'm jealous of the career oportunities she's had because of her father's fame, although i would not wish her mother's fate on anyone...that must've been pretty shit to deal with.

it's just one if those outfit things

2008-12-17T11:10:00.010Z

so today i'm pretty much wearing everything i bought on monday, it feels so nice to have something new to put on although i really must stop with the black. my mission for the new year will be to incorporate a little more colour into my wardrobe, although not too much! i added the headband and earrings for my friends party this evening.

also, i can't believe how much there is to do before xmas and how little time there is to do it all. so far i have bought...

the *husband* - an xbox 360

the sister - a picture frame (sounds crap i know, don't worry i still have plently more little ideas of stuff to get her)

the mother - a necklace stand from urban outfitters (getting her a necklace to go with it)

the father - a comedy book about politics and the credit crunch (why are they so hard to buy for?)

the baby brother - an elmo's xmas dvd

the step mother - absolutely NO idea, i just don't really know her that well...

so i still have loads of shopping to do. i picked out our tree last night which is perfect even though it was a little expensive, it needs more decorations though. and i guess i am finally starting to get into the christmas spirit, although really i am just looking forward to a couple of days off work and chillaxing at home...plus presents!

oh yeah, and thanks to the lovelies chloe and keepitsleazy who made me feel much better about my birthday, i guess it ain't soooo bad ;)

*EDIT* i can't believe i called my husband my boyfriend...he would be so unimpressed.

look like ol' potato

2008-12-15T21:29:00.003Z

today is my birthday...woohoo i'm 29! yeah it sucks, people in their early 20's think that's bad...i'll be 30 next year O_O

it's ok though, saturday evening was spent with my mates, drinking down the pub and then dancing at proud in camden. i had lots of fun pretending our little pile of bags and coats on the floor was a campfire and preceeded to do stupid indian tribal moves around it. surprisingly many people came to join the dance around our campfire, yes stupid dancing is much fun.

we missed our stop on the bus on the way home but it was ok because a nice taxi driver that we started talking to at the burger van on chelsea bridge offered to give us a free lift home. people can be nice in london...they're not all shank wielding hoodies.

sunday i recovered and watched elf. 'cotton headed ninny muggins' is the best insult ever.

today i went shopping with my mum in westfield and got a faux leather biker jacket from topshop to replace my primark one which is falling apart, and a gorgeous necklace with spike pendants from all saints. if i get time i might take a few pictures tomorrow. i also picked up a few things from urban outfitters and my lovely husband gave me some chloe perfume and body lotion...it smells yum.

so yeah, all in all it wasn't too bad, but i'm really not looking forward to next years.

relapse

2008-12-11T17:33:00.003Z

the addiction to shoes continues. i actually haven't bought myself anything in ages because i've desperately been trying to pay off my overdraft, however today i felt like i deserved a treat and these boots in new look (i don't think i ever bought anything from there before) managed to persuade me spend £35. not bad considering topshop would probably charge over double the amount for the privilege to buy something similar.

i'm not sure the photo does them justice, they look better in real life ;)

i say we take off and nuke the entire site from orbit

2008-12-10T13:30:00.002Z

i was so elated to be back in my grimy, grumpy, busy, beautiful london this morning i practically skipped to work. i used to be a beach girl, i am currently most definitely a city girl but i know i will never ever EVER be a country girl. nice but dull is how I would describe my little break to pomy. i imagine i would be feeling it more in summer but it rained most of the time we were there and my dad’s idea of entertaining us was to drive us around switzerland for hours telling us how beautiful ‘the view’ is, which i’m sure it is when it’s not covered behind miles of thick grey cloud.

ok it wasn’t all doom and gloom. it was really nice to spend some quality time with my 2 year old little brother and I think he finally knows who I am now which is a bonus. he does seem to have an unhealthy obsession with elmo though.

in other news my husband figured out how to speak french (we were in the french part not the german part). simply stick ‘le’ before every word. for example, he no longer calls me bum face, I am now ‘le bum face’. i think it has a certain ring to it, n’est pas?

sorry for the bleakness (ie. no pictures) of this post…kinda reminds me of pomy…

there be no one drinkin' moonshine round these parts

2008-12-06T09:05:00.005Z

yeah so basically i am in switzerland at the moment in a miniscule village called pomy visiting my dad with limited internet.

we flew out on thursday and it's pretty here but has rained none stop so my plan to take lots of photos has be scrapped so far. things should be back to normal soon!

photo from the cobrasnake

i'm miss world, somebody kill me

2008-12-03T13:06:00.003Z

courtney love on the cover of elle? i love it. this woman is a complete train wreck who doesn't seem to ever give a fuck and i can't help but be grossly intrigued by her.

i saw her in topshop once when i used to work there, and apart from following her around the store with a completely ridiculous look of awe on my face, i was stunned by how tall she is...quite huge infact, but wonderful.

XOXO

2008-12-02T17:22:00.003Z

it's fair to say my posts have been a little thin on the ground lately. about the most exciting thing that's happened to me recently was realising that i am weird enough to be enjoying the fashion of a 15 year old fictional character.

after spending the whole of sunday afternoon watching season 2 of gossip girl via surf the channel i found myself prefering jenny humphrey's ensembles to those of blair's. her style has changed tremedously since the 1st season and i have to say i like it. even though i feel like a right saddo admitting that. surely there are more important things going on in the world i could be concerning myself with....hmmm, actually no.

in miss van's corner

2008-11-26T17:35:00.006Z

like many others out there i have a great fascination with street art/graffiti (yes even some tags can be pretty) and when i first laid eyes on miss van's work i instantly fell in love.

ok i'm going to be blunt here but sometimes i can't understand why everyone seems to make such a fuss over fafi's work. i suppose i compare the two because they are both female artists, from toulouse, and both paint girls on walls with paint...not spray paint. over the last couple of years fafi seems to be everywhere. she designed trainers for adidas, had figures made by kidrobot, animated lily allen in mark ronson's video and morst recently designed artwork on products for mac cosmetics, but in all honesty, i always felt like fafi's work was just a poor version of miss vans, so i don't understand why miss van doesn't seem to get as much, if not more recognition than the fafster (fafster? yes i did just say that...whatever).

lurking in the background, or so it would seem, miss van has been painting away and doing exhibitions in paris, and i just fall in love with her girls more and more.

certainly a lot darker than some of her previous work but still equally amazing. i'm standing in the van's corner and thinking "fafi who?" you know it makes sense!

last night i dyed

2008-11-25T12:15:00.003Z

i'm very busy recently, but not busy enough not to realise that i want some tie-dyed tights. another d.i.y project me thinks.

photo from the cobrasnake

friday night

2008-11-22T16:08:00.000Z

this is andre the giant. he watches over me while i wait for the 344 to take me from battersea to shoreditch. he doesn't protect me from the 2 boys who ride past me on 1 bicycle with the one sitting on the handle bars yelling in my ear as they fly past. i feel momentarily offended until i notice they do it to every single person they go past down the street. i laugh.

bus drivers can be dicks. after picking people up about 3 stops along the road he stops the bus and tells everyone to get off it and use the next one. why not tell people that in the 1st place before they get on your pointless bus? i refuse to pay on the next one and settle down on the top deck to play some bust a move (i love it) on the ds to pass the journey.

i get to liverpool st where i meet kelly and we walk to the sample sale on brick lane. inside they ask us to hand in our coats and bags so we don't steal anything. they're lucky, most of it i wouldn't even bother stealing (yes it was slightly crap), so we grab our things and get down to the more important and essential task of finding somewhere to drink.

we end up in a place tucked away behind the truman brewery where they are playing live brazilian music and doing capoeira.

the drinks begin to flow and evetually we move on to 93 feet east where the cider costs £4.50 a pint (rip off!) and the toilets smell like someone shat out a dead rat. we are the only ones dancing to the live french electro get up on stage, everyone else stands there looking fucking nonchalant because they are tooooo fucking cool for school. we have fun. we give advice to 2 young lads with perfectly sweeping dark fringes on how you should never tell a girl you love her just because she's said it first if you don't feel the same. one of them argue that you might fall in love with her eventually so wouldn't it just be best to say it back straight away just incase? NO! this is so typical of men.

more drinking, more smoking in the freeeezing cold, more talking about life and how wonderful we think the other is and how grease 2 is way better than grease 1, more dancing and then home. today i feel like crap but had fun without the boys for once and love crawling into bed with one waiting for me. evening if it is snoring and passed out because it too has been drinking.

dear santa

2008-11-22T15:20:00.004Z

from all saints

from topshop

please?

girls only

2008-11-21T11:03:00.003Z

so yesterday was a little disappointing, but i'm looking forward to this evening of a girls night out with my best mate and little sis (if she's not still feeling too hung over). first we're going to a designer sample sale on brick lane, i've never been to one before so i'm interested to see what deals there are to be had and how hard it will be for me to keep my credit card in my fake louis vuitton wallet. after that we'll be going for a few drinks, or basically somewhere we can sneak in a few drinks. because we're all skint as fuck the plan is to steal the boy's hip flasks which i will be filling with some duty free grey goose...it is the yummiest vodka, and i don't even drink vodka. will probably end up in 93 feet east and dance our little boots off. i love dancing.

life sucks

2008-11-20T12:47:00.003Z

the only problem with getting free stuff, is that whoever is giving out the free stuff can change their mind and not give you the free stuff. that's why i won't be going to see the kills tonight.

i need a big black chair of doom covered in feathers to sit and sulk in...

preferably in a much darker room.

if you want me to

2008-11-19T11:53:00.005Z

i will be the one
that is always good
and you'll love me too
but you'll never know
what i feel inside
that i'm really bad
little trouble girl

remember mother?
we were close
very, very close
you taught me how to fit it good
flow down life you understood
curl my hair and eye lash
pinch my cheeks and do my lips
swing my hips, just like you
smile and behave
circle of perfection, it's what you gave
then one day i met a guy
he stole my heart, no alibi
he said: "romance is a ticket to paradise"
momma, i'm not too young to try
we kissed, we hugged, we were close
very, very close
we danced in the sand
and the water rose - higher and higher
until i found myself floating - in the sky
i'm sorry mother, i'd rather fight
than have to lie

if you want me to
i will be the one
that is always good
and you'll love me too
but you'll never know
what i feel inside
that i'm really bad
little trouble girl
little trouble girl (what you doin'?)
little trouble girl cross my heart and hope to die,
little trouble girl i can not tell a lie
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu
little trouble girl ah-hu

sonic youth

how do you cheer me up when i'm feeling like shit?

2008-11-18T12:53:00.007Z

phone me at work and tell me you got us free tickets to see the kills on thursday

fuck i love my husband

photo from thekills.tv

no more procrastinating

2008-11-17T14:39:00.006Z

i had quite a productive weekend for a change. saturday we went to visit family and sunday was spent cleaning out all the shit that's accumulated in our tiny flat since we moved in there 2 years ago.

i was proud of the fact i threw out 2 bin bags of clothes with a 3rd put to one side to sell on ebay.

i was also proud of the fact that i cleared my desk from underneath the mountain of paper, books, magazines, pens and paints. finally.

and i was also pround of the fact that after a year not having done any, i haven't forgotten how to draw...almost.

cleaning and creating can be quite satisfying. also, my studs arrived in the mail today. unfortunately i don't think i ordered enough.

cut up but posing like it's 1999

2008-11-15T19:37:00.004Z

because money's a little thin on the ground at the moment i've been trying to revamp stuff that i already have but that's been neglected for a while. since we're trying to clean out some of the crap from our house as well, the husband was about to throw out an old black tshirt of his, but i swiftly retrieved it from the pile of rejects knowing exactly what i would do with it. i saw this idea ages ago when jen wrote about a ksubi tshirt and sanna decided to make her own more affordable version. needless to say i thought it looked pretty hot so i thought i'd give it a go. i decided not to cut up the back coz i can't really stand seeing the back of peoples bras yeah. not only am i pretty pleased with it but i think the boy was kind of impressed too.

ADAM NEATE

2008-11-14T13:12:00.005Z

a british artist well known in the "street art" world for leaving his paintings in the street for people to take home, throw in the bin, do whatever they like with them. having known about him for years i've never actually come across one of his pieces but i heard on the radio this morning that himself and a team will be distributing 1000 of his works around the city of london this evening. i'm quite tempted to wrap up warm and spend the night art hunting to see if i can find one to take home.

image > jeremy gibbs

and on it goes

2008-11-14T08:57:00.003Z

sequin jacket from leschiffoniers.com

so today's lesson is...you kill each other off till there's only one left, nothings against the rules

2008-11-13T13:50:00.005Z

i don't know who these girls are, and apologise for stealing their photos, but i can't wait till next halloween coz i'm gonna be wanting zips up to my eyeballs.

come dowsed in mud, soaked in bleach

2008-11-12T17:58:00.005Z

so last night i did a little d.i.y-ing. above, the jeans i decided to throw some bleach on as they weren't really getting worn much anyway. i'm pleased with them but not sure i'm confident i can pull them off yet...might take some getting used to.

also, i've faintly smelt of bleach all day...slightly unpleasing.

and below the kills image i decided to rasterbate and spent the best part of the evening cutting off the borders (i decided it would look better) and mask taping the whole thing together. we now have jamie and alison watching over us as we sleep.

chanel guitar £2800

2008-11-12T15:23:00.004Z

why am i baffled by this? what self respecting musician would buy this let alone play this? don't get me wrong, i'm all for chanel, but maybe they should stick to what they know best...

persisting obsessions

2008-11-12T08:41:00.002Z

sequin bomber jacket : urban outfitters

sequin scarfs : topshop

i said RASterbation

2008-11-11T11:56:00.005Z

i may be a little slow on this but i love this idea i just came across while browsing the black cigarette community on lj. pick an image, upload it to homokaasu.org/rasterbator , pick the size you want to blow the image up to and then print out on A4 paper to puzzle together and stick on your wall. this means i will be spending the evening sifting through images to try this out with.

i'm also keen to use poladroid but without a mac i will have to wait for the windows version :(

married a month

2008-11-11T06:48:00.006Z

sorry for sounding smug but i really couldn't have hoped to be happier. anyone who's met the right person will know exactly how i feel. sometimes i think i'm so lucky that something bad is bound to happen soon. anyway, as promised, here are a few photos from the day.

i loved the back of my dress the most, the deep v and all the tiny buttons going down it

i love how the best man is rolling his eyes but smiling at the same time

classy as ever, beer dancing

as you can imagine i have tons more pictures but i didn't want to bore anyone too much!

a list, $2000 and my materialistic dreams come true

2008-11-10T17:12:00.003Z

things to do

• clean out my closet, sell decent stuff on ebay and give the rest to charity
• throw out all the crap bits of paper littering my desk and flat in general
• make more of an effort to use my digital slr as well as my polaroid
• set up my scanner, what’s the point in having one and not using it?
• start sketching more, i love drawing and am supposed to be sorting out my portfolio next year
• finish reading the two books i am halfway through at the moment
• revamp an old pair of cheap mondays with some bleach like kirsty

i dunno…as i mentioned a few days ago i seem to be constantly busy but never seeming to achieve very much and it’s annoying me that my blog is turning a little crap in my opinion. i’m hoping a little list of things to do will help keep me on track.

other news as of friday…my dad gave me $2000 dollars in one and five dollar bills that he said i could change to pounds to pay the wedding photographer. all seems slightly dodgy to me but oh so fun holding such a wodge of cash in ones hands.

and now for my favourite thing of the week. i went down to the new westfield shopping centre on friday evening just to see what the fuss is about and with no intention of buying anything. after wandering around trying to decide whether this could be my new favourite shopping destination i eventually came across the all saints store. recently i keep finding myself popping in there for a look and consequently finding more and more items of clothing/jewellery etc to fall in love with. that’s when i laid eyes on the most perfect pair of boots. you know when you’ve been searching for something but nothing in the shops seems to match up to whatever you had dreamed up in your head but these boots ticked all the boxes.

black distressed leather ankle cowboy boots with a small heel and fringing?

i felt like my prayers had been answered all at once, and yes it is silly to feel this way about a pair of shoes but whatever…much to my dismay they didn’t have my size so i had to schlep up to the kings road on saturday morning but it was worth it. i don’t care about the slightly largish but not too large dent on my credit card, i want to wear these boots forever.

they had they’re first outing saturday night, and this is what I wore with them.

damn i look miserable...

rain in the south pacific

2008-11-09T17:04:00.007Z

my how it rained last night. i got soaked to the bone but dried off by dancing all night to the cheesiest (i actually hate that word) music ever. i've been drinking far too much this weekend and have spent the best part of today lying in bed.

i also bought the most perfect boots from all saints yesterday, how i love that shop and wish it wasn't so pricey, but more about them tomorrow...i think i'm actually in love...

dear diary

2008-11-04T18:09:00.006Z

i don't seem to be getting much of a chance to post at the moment or read my favourite blogs due to the fact that work have put some web marshall on the network leaving me with not much choice but to do some actual...work. i've been trying to go to the gym in the evenings so that leaves me even less time, and when hubby gets home it seems rude to spend all evening on the internet. tonight i'm doing a class called circuits which hopefully will be fun but not too exhausting. for this i have chosen to wear my neon reeboks...

please excuse the bloodshot eye...they always seem to get like this in the winter? i think the indoor heating dries the poor little things out :(

*EDIT* that was the hardest class i've ever done!! my whole body aches

back in the day

2008-11-04T17:41:00.003Z

i pretty much love everything about these photos

especially the boots

i am now stricken with a desire to rip off all the pyramid studs from my old belts and apply them to most of my clothes instead

pics stolen from fashiontoast

i gots tagged yall

2008-10-31T17:14:00.005Z

i know not many people read this blog, which is fine because really i would feel a bit silly begging people to come and read it, but anyway, adorable elisabeth from thrills and frills has tagged me, and as this is the first time it’s happened to me i’m actually quite excited. so here goes…

six random things about me

since having my bag stolen along with my keys at the beginning of the year i have to break into my office every morning with a knife from the kitchen...
i broke the record at my posh boarding school (which i hated) for going before the school council so many times. apparently it had been previously held by marlon brando’s daughter.
i am a classically trained pianist and violinist and completed my grade 8 piano aged 13. i never played again, being more interested in guitar and drums.
i did a couple of weeks work in a nickelodeon studio and learned how to make green slime and chuck it over the kiddies. the most fun i’ve ever had working.
i used to have dreads down to my waist which I paid for with my first pay cheque. a year later i shaved them all off. it was so liberating i kept it that way much to the horror of my parents.
i grew up in spain ages 5 – 17 and hated england when we moved back. now london is my most favourite place in the world.

six things i like

sleeping and dreaming of the weird and wonderful
the smell of fresh plastic. i think it’s a childhood toy thing
dancing in the middle of fields to my favourite music wearing crappy clothing, with a cigarette in one hand and a bottle of pear cider in the other
colours that clash
having deep chats about life with my mum while drinking copious amounts of champagne
the nickname my husband gave me fluffy/fluff – i used to hate it

six things i don’t like

coleslaw – the most hideous creation on earth
dutch ovens (scroll down, see farting etiquette, point 4)
being uninspired and under stimulated
liars and people letting me down – luckily i don’t know many
letting fear stop me from making things happen
my new nickname is bum face – i don’t think i will learn to like this one

to pass on the joy, i tag pinkgamegirlrocks

spewky? spooky? see what i did there?

2008-10-31T09:06:00.001Z

happy halloween kiddies! make it a good one!! x

ps. especially elisabeth who is feeling a little deflated about it this year

did u get dressed in the frickin dark?

2008-10-29T17:20:00.004Z

actually yes...yes i did

because i am a kind soul and it is so dark when i get up in the mornings to go to work, i end up fumbling around my bedroom trying to figure out what to wear without switching the light on and waking up my other half. this morning resulted in me finding a pair of thermal leggings which had to do on account i couldn't find my usual AA ones. i kinda like them, so this time the darkness has been good to me. however the fact my bathroom light likes to switch on and off whenever it feels like it is getting pretty mundane, especially mid - eyeliner.

also, i found this vintage faux fur jacket in a charity shop today and thought £8.99 seemed like a fair price so i bought it. however i already have something similar so because i am soooo skint at the moment i will probably end up sticking this on ebay.

it's sad to have S.A.D

2008-10-28T17:06:00.006Z

i am determined not to catch the dreaded s.a.d. (seasonal affective disorder) this winter. while i am enjoying the change of seasons and the cold but sunny weather at the moment, by feb/march i am usually ready to kill myself.

NOT THIS TIME!

the plan of action to combat s.a.d in 2009 is...

excercise - i signed up at my local gym yesterday as i already know there is no way in hell i will be doing my usual 6am jog in the pitch black and freezing cold.
talk - i hate burdening my loved ones with my miserable old self but the more you keep it to yourself the worse it gets. i must also remember to see the docter otherwise.
phone friends - staying in touch with people close to you is important so you don't feel cut off and alone.
do not attempt to quit all the things you enjoy as new years resolutions - ie. drinking/smoking (well maybe smoking, it's a filthy habit) depriving yourself of these little vices only makes the situation worse i find.
book a holiday - i'm thinking maybe a weekend in paris or visiting my dad in switzerland for some snowboarding.
stay inspired - by visiting gallerys and going to gigs.

ok, so i'm hoping this will work but if anyone has any bright ideas please let me know! if you suffer from this you know how rubbishly crap it is. not just for the sufferer but for the people that have to look at their pathetic little face every morning.

luckily at the moment i'm ridiculously happy :) apart from having a stupid bitch of a customer shout at me down the phone today...that wasn't nice :(

pic from vice

tip - wind, sand and lipgloss do not go well together

2008-10-28T17:05:00.001Z

we took a trip into the desert on our last day in dubai. over dunes in a 4x4, sunsets, camels (cute but smelly), and a big buffet dinner at a campsite in the middle of nowhere with henna tattoing, shisha, and belly dancing.

i'm gonna knock you ouuuut, mama said knock you ouuuut

2008-10-27T17:48:00.003Z

saturday night consisted of…

7pm meet at the new rose pub on essex rd for shots and drinking
down pear cider, sambuca and vodka & coke while telling kelly how much I missed her while I was on holiday and how I think my husband loves her boyfriend more than me sometimes.
11pm traipse down to the islington academy for loved up drunken boogying.
we get in for free because our lovely friend rachel works there, besides paying to get into a night called Club de Fromage just seems wrong anyway.
we dance like fools and get kicked off the stage several times. we never learn.
bump into paul’s ex girlfriend that we all hate from uni and have affectionately named hannah the spanner coz she’s a right fucking tool.
spend the rest of the evening trying to stop Kelly from knocking the girl out and smashing her head in. made more difficult by the fact K didn’t know what spanner looked like and basically wanted to go after any girl who was blond and large looking.

kelly: that’s her isn’t it? (at random blonde girl)
me: no kelly that’s not her just forget about it it’s not worth it.
kelly: it is, that’s her i’m gonna fucking smack her head in.

by the way I do not condone fighting of any sort it is for losers, but in k’s defence this girl was a complete arsehole to a boy we all love so I can kinda understand how she felt…I don’t really think the booze helped the situation.
caught the n38 and n44 back home and were in bed by 5am

sunday consisted of…

staying in bed all day
eating chocolate croissants and drinking fresh coffee
watching kung fu hustle again (has to be one of my favourite films. watch it!)
lots of cuddles and wishing we didn’t have to go to work the next day :(

ps. i'm sad because stupid work have cut off access on my computer to blogspot amongst other sites that used to help me while away the mundane hours...whatever will i do?

the wedding night

2008-10-24T19:48:00.004+01:00

it feels like ages since i last posted...actually 2 weeks? but we got back from an amazing honeymoon just last night so i thought i would start with a few photos of what's been going down since the 'big day'. i have to say the day flew by so quickly i hardly had time to take any of it in, but we were super lucky to have my wonderful mum put us up in a room at Claridges for the night. that place is absolutely the most beautiful hotel i have ever had the pleasure of stepping foot in and i doubt whether i'll ever be lucky enough to stay somewhere like that again.

anyway, although i've been loving my holiday it's really nice to be home and i'm looking forward to helping our best man paul celebrate his birthday tomorrow karaoke style. i will post a few photos of the last 10 days in Dubai when i get a chance and as i got hold of wedding photos today (which i was really excited to see) i suppose it would be rude not to put up a few of those too ;)

looking forward to getting back to normal now but feeling pretty good being a mrs. (fuck that makes me sound old!)

the waiting is killing me. would it be bad if i wished it was over?

2008-10-08T13:32:00.005+01:00

i'm starting to feel slightly frustrated. although we are super excited, my boyfriend and i were discussing last night how in a way we can't wait till the wedding is over and we're back from our honeymoon so we can start paying more attention to our lovely friends and have everything stop being about us and getting married. it's all i can think about/talk about at the moment because it's all that's going on.

i'm absolutely skint right now so can't even afford to go shopping or do anything other than wait for the BIG day...which is in 3 days now. anyway, i thought i would be super gay post some photos of me and my beloved. sorry for being so boring!

maybe i should try this???

2008-10-07T16:38:00.004+01:00

photo from vice

come one come all to the sexy circus sideshow

2008-10-06T14:30:00.012+01:00

so...some pics from saturday evening. i was crap and didn't take any photos but i stole these off my sister.

our host

3 piece band

elephant woman - fucking hilarious

attack of the 60ft woman - also fucking hilarious

split puppeteer

crazy war nurse

i love how she had a cigarette and lighter taped to her chest

i think the thing i love about burlesque nights is the comedic aspect and the fact that the women are all different shapes and sizes but clearly feel beautiful and sexy and it always comes across in the performances.

i also got given the best surprise present ever from my lovely friend lucy...

some nipple tassels! (bought from a stall at the event) i actually can't wait to try these babies out. a nice little surprise for the husband to be on our wedding night perhaps???

cluck

2008-10-03T10:46:00.005+01:00

i am all over the place at the moment. busy busy busy, because if anyone hadn't noticed (i've been going on about it enough), i'm getting married next weekend!

people talk about cold feet, but i am the most excited i have ever been, it just washes over me unexpectedly, a massive wave of endorphins. i love it. tomorrow night is the hen night. burlesquing it up with all my girls. i have specifically requested that there be none of

this

or this

yes, she is wearing glittery pink penises on her head. who would actually do this? it's making me be a little sick in my mouth. my mum showed me some balloons my aunt had bought round for me, they say "hen party! no cocks allowed !!" (with a picture of a cockerel on) she then went "don't worry darling they're only for the house" after seeing the horrified expression on my face.
some may think i'm being a party pooper, but this level of tackiness does NOT bring me joy, only excrutiating pain, sorry.

anyway, i am excited and looking forward to wearing my mums old moschino black fringed dress and feathers in my hair, drinking champagne and dancing the night away with a bunch of gorgeous ladies.

they just keep on comin

2008-09-30T08:59:00.003+01:00

the shoes that is. i just can't stop myself and if this blog has made me realise anything it's that they are my weakness.

i love this new pair and to be fair i had planned to buy these ages ago but when i went back to camden they were all sold out. i searched high and low for something similar but sometimes second best just wont do. i'm glad i held out because my lovely little sis was in camden the other day and found me a pair. i love her :)

you make me wanna

2008-09-29T15:17:00.003+01:00

looking at this photo on garance dore is making me think i may expose the septum ring i have secretly tucked away up my nose ;) i used to have loads of piercings which i took out maybe 3 years ago now because i felt like people i met never seemed to look past them. i took out my lip, my nipples (not that anyone really saw them actually) and the flesh tunnels in my ears, but i kept my septum hidden away just incase i ever changed my mind. we'll see, i can't say i miss my piercings all that much but this girl looks hot, so maybe just for a little change. i'll try and post some pictures if i do...

ps. click to enlarge, i don't think you can see her nose properly in this picture