Saturday, January 31, 2009

mug shots + vodka shots x 3

1. attempting to find my inner camwhore - must need more alcohol.
2. my husband's freaky new tash. yeah he knows he looks like a cunt but insists on keeping it just because it amuses him how it annoys me.
3. my gorgeous sis, looking gorgeous as always.

a combination of staying sober for a month, pay day and having a shitty week meant it was time to go out and get drunk. sometimes it just has to be done. needless to say although most of the night was pretty damn fun it all ended in tears with me sleeping on the sofa. alcohol is bad kiddies.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

say whaaaat?! so outta my league...

yesterday i receive an email from net-a-porter telling me that for a mere 1394.69 english pounds this balmain chain detail tank can be mine.

seriously, why the fuck do i even bother..?

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

lost forever in the stupid sun

i currently have the attention span of a gnat. i can't stop thinking about warmer weather, road trips round europe (we're thinking of going to pukklepop in belgium, anyone been? any good?), drinking beer and dancing in the middle of scummy festival fields.
you can't see it brilliantly in these pictures, but i've recently taken to wearing this turquoise stone necklace i bought in new york about 10 years ago now. it's my favourite colour stone for jewellery and reminds me of sunny days and my beautiful greek grandmother who used to always wear a turquoise ring which she said protected her from the evil eye or something. she gave me the ring when she passed away and i stupidly lost it in a polo field on sports day. my friends helped me search that field high and low even though we all knew it was unlikely to turn up. it still makes me so angry to this day that i hadn't been more careful.
luckily i still have the silver cuff that she wore religiously all the time i knew her. i now do the same, on my right wrist.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

growing pains

i finally got around to seeing sommer's town this weekend. i loved it. a heartwarming slice of london life. however after seeing the trailer for persepolis for the first time, even though i've been meaning to watch it since it came out aaaages ago, this is now my number one movie to watch. january is the perfect month for catching up on films.

Monday, January 26, 2009

say hello to my little friend

so on saturday i went for my first ever full body massage at this place called cucumba in soho. the boy got me vouchers for xmas and i decided that would be the best way to spend them. it was amazingly relaxing, however being chucked back out onto oxford st straight after sent my stress levels soaring once more. there was only one take sanctuary in my beloved all saints hidden away behind topshop on oxford circus. i wasn't planning on making any purchases, the only item i'd been lusting after for quite some time appeared to be sold out on their website and besides, even after being reduced from 130 to 91 pounds was still too expensive for me, but, somethings are just meant to be and with my beady little eye i spotted the sought after item sitting all on it's lonesome on a shelf. i picked it up, stroked the soft leather for a bit and played around with the numerous zips until i opened the bag, finding a piece of paper inside saying it was now reduced to 65. i'm sorry but for me that was a complete bargain, so without a second thought i was at that till whipping out my credit card.

my husband just laughed at me when i got home. his words, "you go on and on about being skint but you somehow manage to pay for a new bag?" he didn't understand that this wasn't an impulse buy, it was the bag of my dreams which i will use until it dies, it was the only one left and a much more reasonable price. it had to be done. end of.

this is the only thing i've bought myself since xmas, apart from the checked shirt of course, but i am sticking to my new shopping mantra which is not to buy anything without thinking about it for a good long time first. if it's meant to be it will be, if not, it's not the end of the world. there will be plenty more materialistic items for me to fall in love with.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

i want


i know these pics of erin have been flying around all over the place recently but all i'm saying is that the right denim jacket from a charity shop and a bit of good old bleach is gonna save me $195. i will definitely be diy-ing my own version of this vest by the time it's actually warm enough to wear in this country, whether i'm brave enough to tackle recreating the amazing shredded tshirt by raquel allegra?...only time will tell...

pic from

Friday, January 16, 2009

some things are that mundane

yeah i's just a checked shirt, not the most original item of clothing one could own but there are just some things that are practical and comfortable enough to give into sometimes. being the super picky person that i am it's not as if i just decided "i need a checked shirt, that'll do" quite the contrary. everyone knows they haven't exactly been scarce on the highstreet but none of them until now ever seemed like they would be able to match up to the salmon pink and green one of my dad's that i used to wear constantly as a teenager when i was going through my 'grunge' phase. this one however appealed to me today for some reason, good length, not overly baggy and i like the coral and navy colours, so i bought it...even though i shouldn't have.

oh and yes, i have just managed to write a load of bollocks about a fucking checked shirt. guess that's blogging for ya.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

if i wasn't skint as a brick


1. all saints teja bag
2. vivienne westwood armour ring


i finally watched this last night. i liked it. it made me miss spain.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

it's all about me

and it’s pretty dull so i don’t blame anyone who can’t be arsed to read this. i know i wouldn’t bother if it was the other way round.

i know my blogging has been a little sporadic recently and pretty impersonal but that is because i have been taking some much needed me time. you might remember me going on about how i was shit scared of getting the new year blues but how i had a plan of action to combat this, and so far i have to say, things aren’t feeling too bad.

i know i said i wouldn’t be giving up drinking and smoking as this might send me over the edge but actually this is doing me a world of good.

i’ve quit smoking weed and tobacco and the green stuff i don’t miss one little bit, it’s completely pointless and i hate how i seem to keep falling back into the habit mainly because my husband has a weak spot for it and with all due respect, unlike a lot of people who like to get caned, it does not effect his motivation to work hard and be a productive human being, but i’m glad we are both off it and i’m enjoying having a bit more sharpness to my brain. the tobacco i miss a little, but lets face it, it’s expensive, it stinks and it won’t help to keep those wrinkles at bay, especially seeing as i’ll be hitting the big three oh at the end of this year.

drinking has been ‘cut back’ because i am fed up of the hangovers every weekend which result in me not accomplishing very much. i’m enjoying being a homebody at the moment, i feel refreshed and i’m also saving money. bonus. this doesn’t mean i won’t have a glass of wine or a cheeky vodka martini (god i love them) if i really feel like it, which generally speaking…I don’t. instead i’ve been spending the weekends going to exhibitions, cooking delicious meals and catching up on movies i’ve been meaning to watch.

as promised i have been hitting the gym 4 – 5 times a week for 45mins and although some days i really don’t feel like going i’m usually damn glad i did afterwards and it’s nice that i’m not having that post Christmas ‘fuck i feel fat and I hate myself’ depression, which yes, i know, is silly when you’re not actually FAT fat, but i’m sure everyone gets those days regardless.

so all in all i am feeling pretty happy and healthy which means i’m now concentrating on redoing my cv and getting a new job with creative, like minded individuals. if you read this blog regular like, i’m sure you’ve seen me go on about how i hate my job, blah blah blah, get out the violins, but the reason is because actually, despite having studied animation at uni and always wanting to become an artist, doing work experience on kids shows for the the bbc and nickelodeon, having designed and sold tshirts at camden market and winning a small tshirt competion (i was very proud of this at the time), i have ended up spending the past two years working in an office for my dad’s international postal distribution service. big fat yawn i hear you say? i gotta admit it was the money that seduced me, but also i wanted to spend some time with my dad who i’ve always struggled to get along with, especially when he left my mum this time six years ago out of the blue for another woman (if it will fuck up a 23 year old I hate to think what it does to little kiddies). i was also kind of flattered that he asked me coz i always felt like a bit of a disappointment, but now i think i've gotten all i'm gonna get out of doing it and it's just time to take what i've learned and move on.

tshirt comp design

anyway, after last years wedding whirlwind i am trying my hardest to focus on finding what i want to do with the rest of my life because to be fair i feel quite blessed with everything else. i’m taking my time and thinking, picking and choosing carefully. let’s see, by the time i’m 30 i’d like things to be heading in the right direction and some big changes are definitely due.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

tagged: the pope does marilyn

i got tagged by chloe - very cute pic btw

the rules
1. go to the 4th folder on your computer where you store your images
2. pick the 4th picture in the folder
3. explain the picture
4. tag 4 people to do the same

i can't believe i haven't posted any of these photos yet coz there are actually some pretty good ones if you're into graffiti at all. i took this at the cans festival last year. i think i like it so much because old popey looks so gleeful.

i now tag thrills and frills, keep it sleazy, perplexed pixie and lucy in the sky

Thursday, January 8, 2009

tale of how

i've just spent the evening watching the 2nd pictoplasma dvd on our sick new 40" tv that arrived yesterday evening. this animation by the blackheart gang was pretty special i thought.

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

lost in translation

photo by cocoip
photo by wasabinoise

i'm still feeling pretty restless at the moment and whenever this happens i always begin to think about travelling. as long as i can remember i have wanted to visit tokyo and actually just japan in general. lucky for me my gorgeous husband is feeling the same way so maybe i'll get to make a little trip this year.

chain mail

i love receiving packages through the post. by the time they arrive you forget about the fact you paid for them and they feel more like a little gift out of the blue. this arrived yesterday. the necklace from all saints but better coz it was on sale. sweet.

Sunday, January 4, 2009

"i like boring things."

yesterday we decided to go down to the southbank and check out the andy warhol exhibition at the hayward. my favourite exhibits were some prints of mick jagger and a random interview with american author fran lebowitz (who frankly i never heard of before). let's say i found her views refreshing.

quit dreamin mary jane

i'm still contemplating the new year and wondering what 2009 will bring. i constantly feel like i'm not doing what i'm meant to be doing and will die miserable, retched, bitter and twisted (a little like my beautiful grandmother god bless her). i know i am the only one who has control over my destiny and that waiting around for some magical, out of the blue experience to hit me between the eyes will more than likely NOT happen.

i am totally lost in the rat race at the moment and thinking thinking thinking how the hell to get out of it.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

hello 2009

happy new year.
make it count.